Brrrrrr. (and a murderer) and some warm fuzzy feelings

December 15, 2010

I say that because it is damn cold. Bitter, bitter, bitter cold.  But still I did manage to go out and wrap presents for some orphans. Yes, my bah humbug self actually got a little into the Christmas spirit. One of the long-term ex-pats in the neighborhood decided to do a toy drive for an orphanage in the area, and I saw it on facebook and decided to participate.  I surprise myself sometimes.  It was fun, and although I won’t go to the orphanage and distribute the toys I do feel a bit warm and fuzzy inside for buying toys and wrapping  them.

But it was cold outside. Bitter, bitter, bitter cold. So I’m happy I don’t have anything going on today, and can chill. I plan on finishing a knitting project and drinking hot chocolate. Lots of hot chocolate.  I think my students will probably be pretty mellow as well. Their finals are finally done.

Today I didn’t expect a single student to have the mental capacity to do much, so I decided to play a game.  I don’t play games in the classroom very often. I’m not a fun teacher, although I do like my students to enjoy my lessons, I don’t consider entertainment as part of my job description.  However, the day after finals, the week before they go on a field trip to Jeju island I think a game is ok.(why didn’t we have such cool field trips when I was in school? – all we did was go to museums)

So I have a few favorite games, and I usually let them decide which games. The two chosen were “5 words” and scatagories. 5 words is really quite simple, I have the students think of and call out 5 random words. Then they have to use those words in a dialog or skit.  When they do their presentation, the other students have to clap when they hear the words.  (I usually leave them up on the board to make it a bit easier) – if I hear the word, but the students don’t clap, I win. I make them do a very silly dance.  I rarely win.

The other game we played was scatagories. Basically I just put them in teams, then write  fruit/vegetable, animal, person (not a name), city (not in Korea) and country on the board.  I then have them write one word in each category that starts with a letter.  So we are playing along, and I always try to mix the alphabet up (it keeps them on their toes), and I put the letter M on the board.  Well, one of the students had Mango, monkey, murderer,  Madrid and Moscow. Now since Moscow is not a country they didn’t win, but it warmed the cockles of my heart that my rather dark sense of humor has rubbed off on them.

The year is over, winter camp will begin, but for the most part I have to say good-bye to these students (only a few will be in my Advanced English class for 2nd years, and even fewer will be in my winter camp) – I really enjoyed teaching these young women. I always feel a little bit better about the future, knowing they will be a part of it.

And if you ever wondered what a day in a Korean students life is like, someone did a video. Although it is short, I do believe he got the essence of the matter right.

http://www.youtube.com/e/bniwLF4hYHQ

 

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What’s going on

November 30, 2010

Final exams are next week. My students are bit more than a little stressed. I’m a bit stressed as well because I have to make sure all the test material has been covered for my second year students.  Plus they have two ways of getting participation points. One is to volunteer to give a presentation in class. The other way is to talk to me for a few minutes in the teacher’s office.  Well.  They deadline for participation points is Friday.  And the students aren’t allowed in the teacher’s office because some of the teachers are still writing questions for the test. It is cold in the hallway, yet students are lining up just to talk to me. … I’ve decided that next semester I will move the deadline, at least the talking to me in the office part.

Actually I enjoy talking to my students. I let them choose the topic (actually they have to choose the topic) and yes, I do get to hear how handsome a particular musician or actor is, but I also get to hear about the books they are reading, their mother’s cooking, their thoughts on the news, and their thoughts on life. It always brightens my day.

Of course right now N.Korea is in the news, but to be honest, my friends back home seem more worried than most of the Koreans I know.  I did ask, but most of the people I talked to, a non scientific sample of co-teachers and friends,  believe it is just Kim Jong-un trying to prove he is strong enough to be the leader of the N.Korean military. To quote one of my students, “they are distressing, so they make us distressing” – ok the grammar isn’t perfect, but I think she has the idea right.  I’m not particularly worried. I promise to keep my eye on the news, but I think it will not be a big deal a week from now. (if I’m wrong you can say nah nah nah, told you so)

In other things that are going on, I got my ticket to Deagu for next Saturday, and the toy for my orphan. I thought I had a boy, but apparently I have a girl. So I’ve bought two toys. I’m going to turn both in, just in case someone doesn’t come through. Normally I’m a pretty bah humbug kind of gal when it comes to Christmas. I’m definitely grumpy and misanthropic. However, I did get invited to help make Christmas cool for some orphans, and why not?

I’ve also finished two, count them two, knitting projects. I could probably go a lot faster if a) I knew what the hell I was doing, and b) I didn’t make at least one  mistake that ensured an unraveling and re-cast on.  But hey it keeps me occupied and since I’ve finished the workbook, I now have to have something to do.

I’m sure I’ll find a new project soon enough

 


Finisheee

November 22, 2010

I turned my usb in to my head teacher, everything is out of my hands now. To be honest I’m both happy and sad. I’m happy that it is finally done, but to be honest, I think it could be improved. A lot. That might just be my perfectionism talking.  I actually volunteered for this project. It is all my own fault. I love my students, and they are very smart.  When taking a grammar test, they score pretty high. They are able to choose the right answer, but when it comes time to write a sentence… well let’s just say it isn’t their strength.  So I volunteered to write some worksheets. The worksheets turned into a workbook.  You know how that goes.  And it is now finished.

My poor plants are sadly neglected and are drooping. My apartment is a disaster zone. I have watered the plants, and I will do a through pruning. Later. I will not be cleaning the house tonight. I will sit and hope something good is on TV because I really don’t have any energy for much more.  I might get out my sadly neglected knitting. Might.  I plan to veg out as much as possible.

Tomorrow I have to turn in the questions for the final exam.  It never ends.  I will also be contacting grad schools.  It really never ends.

Until I actually do something interesting here are some pictures of things seen out and about.


tids and bits

November 2, 2010

In no particular order.

It is definitely fall. The air is crisp and the wind now has quite a bite. The sky is clear and the leaves are changing making the mountain look like a patchwork quilt.  I love it. However I am debating whether or not to turn on the heat. On the one hand, warm floors.. mmmm. on the other, it really does get very hot very quickly.

I’ve been wanting to do a bit of knitting at work, but I’m going to be way too busy. I am finishing up the directions for all the worksheets in my workbook. (I just found out the school might even pay me! I really didn’t do it for that, but if it is true, bonus) I will also be working on the second year’s writing workbook. They won’t actually have the book in their hand, but I would like to organize the worksheets and next year have a real writing portion of my class.  – I also need to get an essay written about co-teaching in Korea and I’ve gone a bit insane and signed up for http://www.nanowrimo.org/ Yes I will try to write 50,000 words of a novel in one month. Whew. I’m tired just thinking about it.

In other news, the first years are having their speaking test next week. It means I don’t have to prepare for classes, but it also means that the testing season is upon us. That means the students are somewhat less than attentive in class. Today they had a major math test after school. I didn’t know it was a biggie, so when my students would sneak working on their math in class, I got a bit angry. I think it bothered me so much because usually this was a great class, that usually works pretty hard in class. So I told them I was a bit disappointed. After class, one of the teachers said “oh, they have a huge math test today” Well. I felt pretty bad. So the next class I made a deal with the students, if they worked hard and really worked, not just filled out the worksheet as fast as possible, I would let them have the last ten minutes. They still couldn’t concentrate on English. Sigh.

I haven’t decided what to do for winter camp yet. I still have two months, but I like having a theme. I’ve done “The Wizard of Oz” and “It’s Murder! in the summertime”  The theme has to be interesting, plus I have to be able to make activities and worksheets that the students can use and enjoy. I want my camp to be fun. At least that is what I try to do.

And as I said before, I’m learning how to knit. I don’t understand how I can make a mistake on every single project. It really is simple.  Sigh. Perhaps my novel for novel-writing month could be about a gremlin that gets onto knitting needles and messes up things.


A day in the life

October 29, 2010

I’m writing this because I have been scolded for not posting in a while.

So I’d like to talk about my average day.  This is what it is like to be an English teacher in Seoul. I’m going to talk about Wednesday, because I usually don’t go out much on Wednesday night, so it is a very ordinary day.

I usually wake up about 6:30, turn on some tunes and turn on the coffee. Then I hit the snooze button and sleep for an extra 10 minutes. So then I have to hurry and get in the shower and get dressed.  I leave the house at 7:30, and walk to work.   That early in the morning, all the hofs and restaurants are closed, but there are sleepy-eyed people waiting for the bus, and cyclists and cars keeping a ghost town vibe to a minimum.  Then I get to The Hill.  In summer I always get a bit sweaty trudging up the last 10 minutes of a vertical incline.

I get into the office along with all the other teachers. Mr. Ahn, who teaches Philosophy, sits next to me on my right, and Ms. Che, one of my co-teachers sits on my left. I say hi to everyone, and turn on my computer, then grab some coffee, and say hi to the other teachers. I’m able to speak enough Korean to be pleasant.

Mr Ahn doesn’t speak any English, but he is kind and gentle, and he always smiles at me.  He is also an excellent dancer and will sometimes share a dance video with me.

I usually have a class 1st period, so I collect the worksheets I’ve prepared the day before, look them over and get everything else I need.  I usually only need chalk, and most of the time it is already in the classroom.  The bell rings at 8:10 and all the other teachers and I leave the teacher’s office and head to the classrooms. In Korea, the teacher’s don’t have their own classroom; we travel.

I have 4 classes everyday.  Usually I have one beginner’s class, an intermediate, and an advanced in the first year( freshman) classes and second year (classes. For first year classes I have total freedom for my classes. I can do what ever I want. This is awesome, but some days I feel a bit of pressure to come up with something interesting and informative and will get them talking.   I usually have the class do group work, mostly because it is easier to control the class and easier to keep the students awake.

Sleeping students is not a big problem in my class, but then I keep them moving a bit, and usually if a student puts her head down, it’s because she is sick or had to work late.  Most of my students are pretty good about participating, although I do have to remind them to speak English in the groups. I generally like teaching the classes. I have a co-teacher in each class:  The same teacher all day, and I think I get along with them all.  They usually help me by translating if I ask, and helping the students after they get in their groups.  So I enter the class, explain the tasks, put helpful vocabulary on the board, and put them in groups. Then my co-teacher and I go around the classroom helping the students with their tasks.  After they are finished, usually for the last 10  minutes I have the students give a presentation. Most of the time, they are pretty good about volunteering, but sometimes I just have to pick the team that starts ( I use eine meinie minie moe)

Second year classes are a bit different. I have a book that I have to follow. To encourage participation, we have 10 points that we give out. This can turn a B into an A, so the students are pretty keen to get them. They get them by either talking to me at my desk in the teacher’s office or by doing a presentation in class.  They are pretty good about participating even in the non-point generating activities.  I really enjoy talking to them at my desk. I’ve learned a lot and some of my students are really interesting people.  Yeah, I do love them. They are pretty cool.

Between classes I prepare for other classes, read, surf the internet and next week I’ll be re-doing the instructions for the workbook I wrote for next year. I also have to think about what I want to do for winter camp. The school says they think I work hard, but I don’t feel like I do really. I love making worksheets and creating activities, and I love being in the classroom.  It doesn’t feel that work-ish to me.

School finishes at 4 and this semester I don’t have any extra classes.  So I say good-bye to everyone, and chat a bit, and then leave. Some days I go to the market and get some veggies to cook up, and sometimes I go to E-mart. Right now they have avocados at Costco and I bought some of course. I go home, and make some more coffee because it is my favorite addiction, change into something comfortable, cook dinner, and go online to watch tv or a movie.   I used to go out a bit more often, but lately I’ve been staying home and learning to sew and knit.  I really enjoy knitting, there is something a bit meditative to it.   I sometimes call home or friends, and sometimes I chat on messenger or face-book.  I clean the kitchen up, and around 11-ish I go to bed.  I wake up at 6:30 and do everything over again.

Right now it is getting cooler and crisper, and the leaves are changing.  Tomorrow is Halloween, but this year I don’t have a many plans. I’ll meet some friends for dinner on Sunday, and Saturday I plan on going to Dongdaemun and Kyobo, and I will spend some time in a coffee shop watching the people go by. I have to go into Itaewon and pick up a couple of calling cards because half of my family don’t have Skype, and then depending on how I feel, I might put on some dancing shoes, or I might just call a friend to grab some dinner.  I won’t know till I get there.  Next weekend I will not go anywhere or talk to anyone. I try to have at least one day a month where I turn off the phone, and the computer and don’t get dressed.

And this is my life right now. True it isn’t very exciting, but it is enjoyable.


On compassion and just deserts

October 7, 2010

I was talking with a friend while we were walking to the subway after dinner. We had eaten at a Vietnamese/Thai fusion which was awesome by the way.  And as we were winding around, the conversation wended as the are wont to do on a beautiful October evening in the middle of the week. We talked about our days and weeks and plans and then we started talking about ideas.

I’m reading a book – Justice by Michael J. Sandel.  It is more about political philosophy, and one of the philosophers that he discusses is John Rawls. He has a distributive justice idea, that I’m not sure I fully understand enough to explain, but one of the ideas he has is that we don’t really deserve all the things we have earned.  I tend to agree. I don’t really “deserve” my job.  A lot of my good fortune in life was not from my work, or even my talent.  I was born in a country that speaks a language other countries want to learn.  I didn’t earn that, I didn’t work for that, it isn’t even a great talent. I just happened to be born into that language, and that makes me valuable.  Don’t get me wrong, I do work hard at being the best teacher I can be.  I worked hard for my degree, but again, I was lucky to come from a country that gives second chances for education. It isn’t something I choose, it is just the way my society runs things.

There are many people smarter than I am, who work harder, and who have more talent than I ever will. Yet because they were born in a different situation, they will not be able to work as a teacher in many countries, whereas I can.  I don’t “deserve” this good fortune. If I acknowledge this, I have to acknowledge the other side. Many people in worse situations don’t “deserve” them either.

As a teacher it is easy to forget this. It is easy to like the students who like you, and who like your subject.  It is much harder to realize that the students who don’t like English, who have other talents, some talents that are not as valued as English or Math skills, are also deserving and worthy.  I admit that there are students that frustrate me. They seem truculent and uncooperative, they don’t want to participate.  I have to remember that I felt the same way in many of my classes in high school ( actually I was a horrible student in high school – I think I may have even driven a few teachers to drink).  I have to remember that the “bad” students aren’t bad people, that the students who aren’t talented in languages aren’t untalented in life.  I try to have compassion for them. Notice I said try.

And that is what my friend and I were talking about. Compassion. What does it mean to have compassion? I don’t think it means having sympathy or even empathy with someone. I don’t think having compassion excuses un-social behavior or not working. I don’t think it means we should give students that don’t study or don’t “get it” no matter how hard they try a pass.  I do think that compassion is very different from that.  Compassion is difficult.

As a teacher I try to have compassion for my students, even the ones I don’t really like, or the ones that don’t want to work in my class.  It isn’t always easy.  And I often fail. I’m feeling less than compassionate right now. There is one student that has leveled up. She said she was afraid.  I felt bad, I’m not that scary in the upper level classes. Honest.  But she is a bit of an outcast in her current class.  I’ve been trying to reach out to her a bit, but it is hard, and I don’t want to make things worse.  Some of the students (even ones that I thought were kind of nice and pretty cool) don’t want to sit with her, or let her into their groups. They don’t hide their displeasure at having her join their work-groups.  This student is afraid that it will be worse in the next class, because now, she has gotten used to things in this class. I feel a lot of sympathy for her. As someone not particularly popular in class I also feel a lot of empathy.  I have a hard time feeling much compassion for the girls who bully her.

It comes at a time when several boys had been bullied until they committed suicide in the US. It breaks my heart to see kids that had so much potential, who had so much to offer, leave us so early.  I think they are “deserving” of compassion.  I want to have compassion for those that bullied them as well.  But that seems like I’m saying, oh, those poor bullies, who will think of them. I don’t want to say that. They have done too much damage.

But what is compassion if it is only bestowed on the good guys?

I don’t have an answer.  I try to be a good person. I try to be a good teacher. I try to “earn” my good fortune. I try to be compassionate, not just to the ‘good’ students, but also the ‘bad’ students.  I try to be compassionate to myself.

 


On good girls and bad boys

September 9, 2010

We are continuing our cult of personality in class this week.   I gave my students a long list of personality adjectives, and I even translated them into Korean (with help from my most awesome co-teacher) and had them do a worksheet where they decided which traits were good and which traits were bad.  I then gave them a worksheet where they chose the 5 best traits for a friend, a father, a mother, a teacher and a boyfriend.

I always make the students give a presentation after they fill in the worksheets; I do let them work in groups, and I try to get them to use the time to speak English,  but as soon as I’m out of sight, they start speaking in Korean, this happens even in my best classes, so to make sure they speak a little bit of English, I make them stand up and present their worksheets.

I was shocked at how many students said “mean” and “cold-hearted” are good traits for a boyfriend.  I asked, and they all said, ” bad boys, mmmm good” or some variation. As a teacher who both loves her students and is not immune to bad boy charm, I was in a bit of  a pickle. I do understand, but when I think of a bad boy, I don’t think of mean, or cold-hearted.  I think of a guy with a motorcycle and more than one girlfriend. Fun while it lasts, but something you usually outgrow eventually. The problem was explaining this without scandalizing some of my co-teachers ( I have 5 this semester).  1/2 of my co-teachers would be sympathetic, but some … hmm I’m not so sure about.  So I settled on – A bad boy will take you for a ride, and a bad man (cold-hearted and mean) will take everything you have.  I think that is a good explanation.

In my advanced class, I also have them do a dialog using the new vocabulary words. I was not surprised that the students who liked bad boys would come up with this exchange:

A: “I am sad. I got into a fight with my boyfriend”

B: ” It is obviously his fault”

Because if he is a bad boy, his fault is obvious. Obviously.

I was also a bit surprised but not shocked that students in the advanced and high intermediate classes liked a bossy and strict teacher, but students in the low intermediate and beginner classes liked an easy-going teacher.

Sometimes I have way too much fun in my class, but then I’m very easily amused.